“Editor’s note”
2016 two domestic drama of the ODE and the parting from the hit, also make the city “new middle class” became a hot topic. The beginning of 2017, central United Front work Department of publicity Office issued a news release saying, China’s new social strata of the General size of about 72 million people. Although this class can easily be described as “middle class”, but a CCTV interview, over half of the respondents think their income, assets and level of consumption could not reach the middle class.
In January 2017, published in an article on net in the first half depicts the picture of their life: “graduated from the well-known University, decent and occupation, settle down in the big city family, love of knowledge and learning, the pursuit of quality consumer and experience; it is one of the vulnerable groups, children’s education, housing, family member’s health is a source of anxiety. ”
Review of 2016, we will look to them, telling them “struggling in a suspended state” anxiety and hesitation, record their dreams and unremitting struggle and hope of a better tomorrow.
On January 4, 2017, Han Yi home late at night, readily took this picture called “night.” This pictures are Han Yi photo
23:18 like a charm.
For two months, Han Yi always stuck in the age of 26 within the first three minutes into Lund road subway station in Shanghai Metro Line 11 line.
“Last train to the last bus, and later will be missed. “Ran at the same time, her heart meditation. Until sat, wheezing breath has not been smooth. Cars rarely, all looking tired, gives “the contaminated man as” in the air. Han Yi opposite the glass reflected her face, expressionless as tired.
Reminded her of home-, l-a’s second-tier cities in the Northwest. Three months ago, she was there for no more than 20 people work in the new media Department of Government, job is every selected manuscript editing upload, occasionally writing meeting press release, take some offline activities. Slows down after two o’clock in the afternoon, 5:30 is time, 5:20 began to someone standing on the punch line, look at table clock and leave.
“L, estimated 22 you can see in the street is high just taken out, ready to catch the next one. “Han Yi smiled. Her former colleague and friend circle at least three people who claim they are “clubbing the little Prince.”
It makes her feel lonely. Catch the last train more than one person.
“One”
Before the age of 18, Han Yi has lived in the city of l. Parents are both State employees, there’s no big rich had, but there has been a steady living, well-fed. The days when he was young, is nothing more than to go to school, go home for dinner, holidays and students watch a movie sing. Like many teenage girls, her celebrity, especially love Korea arts, film and television.
Taking into account the interests and career, decided to go abroad when the master, she selected the Imaging Professional has been achieved by Sungkyunkwan University. According to the latest QS World University rankings (2016-2017), SungKyunKwan University 106, between Hefei University and Zhejiang University.
Grandparents have relatives in Shanghai, Han Yi before going abroad to Shanghai’s development after graduation. Mother support her going out and want her to be in a big city to achieve the ideal. But boyfriend insisted on staying in the l, but she said her boyfriend, had to give way, “just went home from, stay with him.”
On June 28, 2016, the master came home that day, she posted his resume on the Internet, three days after entry. Compared to the first three years alone in studying abroad difficult, life is suddenly switched the “easy” mode. She used two phrases to describe work easier: “smooth, like a fish in water, without any challenge. ”
Unit is not very far away from home, do not need to rent, home cooking. Encounter any problem can find parents consult to resolve. Friends, when you want to gather a, can find one at any time.
“Is the feeling in your site. “She sigh, look across the trace memory. Without any hesitation, and added: “but can’t satisfy me. ”
Most simply, no other party apart from eating and drinking to do. “I’d like to see an exhibition, no. The play? No, he didn’t. Not even my concert! Easy life comfortable, idle time is very dull. “Han Yi picked up small scoop in front of the plate in the next piece of cake into his mouth.
Exquisite French restaurant in Shanghai’s afternoon tea cakes, sweet fragrance in the air, mingled with the floated from time to time one or two sentences next door girl whine of the Shanghai dialect.
After three years of big-city life Seoul, Han Yi without deliberate contrast, a certain lack of intuitive feel to the home. Although the first 18 years of life she never realized it. But Shanghai more than two months, the situation is not much better.
Apart from the occasional afternoon tea, she participated in the handful of entertainment: colleagues and I went to see a movie, stroll the street twice, saw a show by the way. Mostly had no time. Every job is to sleep, the daily rhythm is up at 7:20, about 8 points out, before 9 to the Office to catch the train last train home.
Morning rush hour subway impressed: “squeeze to death, do not rely on others I am unable to get on. “Film-Busan line crowding the screen during that time, she was crowded every morning in the middle of a group of people hovering, always brain fill screen:” Ze, a zombie outbreak here, don’t have to run, run run no more. ”
If not 2017 a taxi at the beginning of the new year, she didn’t know the Metro passing through every day, pavement is like. That her work overtime for more than 12 points, in a taxi software company next to the Shanghai banknote printing plant, unaware of the truth of the driver: “Oh well, the currency turmoil recently, you print money to work so late? ”
Shanghai West railway station Metro station the night of December 30, 2016. In her circle of friends this photo below: I was in Shanghai, I was waiting for you in 2017, you would like to do in the new year.
Han Yi as humor to laugh it off, then collapsed on the back seat. A streetlight near and far out of the window, fading daytime noise, Shanghai at night with a slight corn taste. House behind the Shanghai West railway station, the closer, the more quiet on the road.
“Not a bit like Shanghai”, she thought. Envisaged in the international metropolis, is supposed to high-rise buildings, shops, and bustling as bright as day.
Back home, sharing roommate ate dinner without cleaning, on the living room table was dirty. She sighed, forgot the dishes, just wash the brush, throw on the bed. Sleep insomnia, mind awake, but the body is heavy. The next morning, two big black eye abnormalities visible, she had a mirror in the heart with a with a sigh.
“Two”
Even so, Han Yi has no regrets over Shanghai. Returned to l city from Seoul to Shanghai again in 2016, toss a great circle, she is now sure, big cities are best for you. Net red County influenced by a some poor households
Six months ago in the city of l, in her words, is “lying to work.” Overtime completely inconceivable, often one or two points have nothing to do, colleagues have started sleeping or chatting. Han Yi to have lots of ideas, for example, can’t we do some activities, how to optimize your articles … … Turns out no one cares, bosses are often out of the Office, out on my own personal work.
Once she strongly feel and everyone’s thinking is not a frequency. “Ah my cavity blood, there’s no place! “She does a flourish that covered his chest, then burst out laughing.
Turn frowned: “finally to deal with interpersonal relationships. “Unit, who and who fight, who left, who were unhappy with his boss … … Gossip spread fast. Small groups and secretly fighting a continuous play. “Every day the same as the biography of Gong Zhen嬛 after. “Han Yi said, could not help but rolled his eyes.
Bosses like the app group. Happy, unhappy again a kick someone out. “He cares if you can see our circle of friends. There was a time he was shielded by my circle of friends, he was kicked out of the group I. “It made Han Yi to laugh or cry, but is open to the right.
“Are too busy! “She concluded. Same boyfriend is also used to describe the civil servants, even though he is very busy. “He kind of busy,” Han Yi paused, as appropriate, saying: “the progress is no longer free. Do you understand? ”
Boyfriend never left, l. Han Yi to study abroad, hope can save a little money each year to ride it out, look forward to the outside world, in his view, love, fun, down-to-Earth, I wouldn’t live. Han Yi, is a small-town environment that made him a closed state.
But boyfriend who did not do it to pursue, in the civil service system, always want to strive for place. Just thirst he sometimes made her feel terrible because he wants what actual achievements does not seem to be the cause, but power itself brings pleasure. Also has a family background of friends, chat said issues will instinctively respond when she says: “find your parents.” Han Yi find it increasingly difficult to communicate: “because she is what relationship the hours parents can help her out. ”
“Relations” in the small role of cities, often visible and tangible, Han Yi had no intention of judging right or wrong, they know their hearts cannot agree: “I would rather rely on the ability to eat, do the real thing. ”
Many a friends stag night she spent in the KTV and bar, a group of people took several boxes of wine to drink, without exhausting it cannot go. There were times, in moments of vocal noise, her heart suddenly dark subtle sense of panic. She spoke of a girlfriends boyfriend, very good condition. “He had so every night. Every day. “Han Yi stressed that” this is the status of the young people more than 20 years. ”
She was afraid a long time will be the same. And fearing a long time does not fit in, from the circle of the friends. Also has girlfriends had married and had children, she found no way to discuss with them the husband thing out of the child. “(Back home) is already three months this way, that the next three years, 30 years … … Is terrible. “Han Yi shook his head.
Party ended more than 10 o’clock bus No. Subway is under construction, no line was opened. Taxi, widely circulated in the marketplace with a joke: “can’t say I go ask master where you go, can you spell with the car, the way give me a ride. “The Han Yi seems quite realistic.
The longer you stay at home, she felt out of place. At first “a certain lack of” intuition or discomfort become conscious–as a reflection of her life “has no rules, no self.”
Rainy night in Shanghai.
“Three”
Entry in his home town soon, bosses often taken Han Yi attended the dinner. Started talking business, forcing her to drink. Drinking is almost part of the folk on the ground, a native of l, girl, Han Yi alcohol is not bad, had three points 48 bottles of beer with my friends. But she does not drink alcohol, don’t like to socialize.
White wine on dinner and collective touching of all first three glasses, then took turns toasting, everyone to worship to others in this Chamber, a toast before the end. “To place explosive to drink down. “She waved a dramatic metaphor.
Boss says, you’re from Korea back should tobacco and alcohol have no taboos. “That felt like I was in a foreign country is not serious for three years to come back! Don’t know if they have any prejudices about student life. “Han Yi speed up quickly. It makes her very angry, but cannot attack. The largest single, put her on the table there are four of us, drinking four bottles of liquor.
Later, private dinner, the boss told her. Once drunk, accompanied by another little girl, boss led her to the little girl sitting in the Yellow River. The wind blew, Han Yi a mind eraser. The next day the little girl told her that, when she was unconscious, the boss’s hands in her lap. Little girls think is wrong, took her home.
It was the third month of the entry. Many also involve her boyfriend and boss of friction. Han Yi felt tired. She thinks, is when leaving.
Shortly after the resignation, she told her boyfriend about the break up. Boyfriends think that boss and his pit bull, Han Yi side with the boss only wants to break up with him. Han Yi speechless: “is basically three views is not. Because in the course of all those years when I was growing up, he never grew up. ”
After the resignation of her mother “grounded” calm at home for a week, to rethink his life. Concluded that must go to a new place, do what they have always wanted to do things.
Send resume, buy tickets to Shanghai, to rent a House. Has been very busy busy for nearly a month, finally now working down at the beginning of November 2016, new media operations in a marketing consulting company.
Get started for the first time, his new boss, give a meaningful assessment: “you are just out of school level. “Han Yi a flustered:” fear not expired just let me go. “She started to go out to look at a variety of public, reading notes, find it thought it was the work of copying, pasting, checking spelling, in fact, there are many interesting things, the company also has a system and method, can learn a lot from it.
“There is a sense of urgency, meaning suddenly filled with life. “She laughed. “Now think about it at that time in the city of l, it is my day’s work a week. “First day of work, six o’clock in the evening the boss and didn’t go home, she didn’t dare to go. Overtime is the norm, “too busy to fly every day.”
Although always busy spitting slot, but she was happy: “be able to see more things, this growth gives me the greatest sense of achievement, sense of accomplishment I felt not lived in vain. “She started to learn to report logical, cross-Department communication and coordination, control their emotions to solve problems. Every thing, feel that they have made little progress.
New boss will take her and colleagues to eat and drink, but will not pull she poured the wine, nor needs her constantly against each other to do something. Everyone has done things in the company, no one gossip: “not free and professional. “Although monthly salaries only 5000 Yuan, half to pay the rent, she felt good.
“Our boss is to start from scratch. “She grins. In her view, Shanghai, competition is intense, but chances are equal, so there is always hope.
“Four”
End of November 2016, Grandpa was dying. Han Yi urgently buy a ticket back to l, the night before leaving, Grandpa still go ahead. She struggled for a long time, collapsed. “All things together when you are testing you. “She said.
She began to realize that their loved ones of old, realized that all along in the process of a countdown. Elders, she began to try to follow them, too lazy to answer before, now would patiently tell one by one.
But she does not intend to return to his hometown. For her, 2016 are “getting back one year”, thus very determined. Crowded subways, busy work, buying a House for the future, pressure on pension, she will think. New philosophy is: there will always be difficulties, but your greatest efforts should be made to solve the difficulties, it is impossible to consider other ways.
She says: “everyone knows that North Canton under a lot of pressure, so going directly to leave? Perhaps in the future when I can’t go in Shanghai, will be moved to two or three cities, but at least I tried. Maybe in the eyes of many, I didn’t plan for the future, but I really don’t think too much leads to fear of the unknown, I think this is an unnecessary fears. ”
But she has a deep love of l, still, think it is a city of both literary and wild feelings, sentiments and be sure to leave it man can feel.
“May be as close as possible to see it from real side, so I was a little disillusioned, but that doesn’t mean no feelings about it. Ridicule only I could spit, people dared to ridicule me into him. That’s my home. “She says, bought new, tickets, 30 l.
Only after coming home from a second night, she placed a on the Metro bus and home-related songs. The music dies, she forwarded to a circle of friends, PostScript wrote: “I know, I traveled across oceans, you were waiting for me to come back. I remember there’s a love of people, and not old youth. I’ll always be your wild child. ”
(Han Yi-not his real name)
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